10,000 steps walked

drum roll please............. 
today i walked 10,000 step! whoo hooooo. way to go me!. yay! 
I have many pedometers, indeed i have worn two at a time on a few occasions but they are never 100% spot on, the best i can get is 10% out and talking off 100 steps or adding 100 steps in each thousand is just not good enough for me. so i walked to school last week with poor 5 year old in hand, moaning all the way, well it was windy and up hill and -1, felt like -10!. after i dropped him off i began counting my steps home. cunning plan not to lose my count. count to a hundred and stick a finger out of my pocket, another hundred another finger out and so on. buy the time i got to my front door 2,400 steps i had walked! great. 4,800 steps done. i google mapped it and its 1.1 miles to school and its 57 mins or so round trip. nice!. 
but a bit scary as the footpath is not very wide so yesterday i decided that we walk up the canal instead, home from home since i lived on my narrowboat for nearly 20 years. on the way back i counted the steps hoping not to see anyone i knew that would make me loose count, just under 2,500 steps. so today (knowing that i would at least maintain my weight without altering my diet at 10,000 steps a day) we set off for a walk to school in the morning and the evening Poor Son! i knew i could do it , it was just up to my knee, but it feels ok.
so nearly 4 hours of walking and 4.4 miles and 10,000 steps done burning off 768 cals. whooooooo hooooooooo. 
when we open the new shop in a few weeks i will only be able to do this walk 2 days a week, but i have counted the steps in the shop and i can do 20 from front to back, walk that 5 times and i've done a hundred!. gotta keep walking and talking them little steps, they all help! 

ate so many veggies for tea too then as a treat i had 3 mini ice creams and a mini choccy muffin, less than 500 cals for the lot. 
have not done so well the last few days, my Sunday night off extended into Monday and Tuesday but i did walk and tried to watch what i ate too. oh please let me have a weight loss this week. 

last week i printed off a map of my immediate area and went walking, counting the steps of each road from corner to corner, writing on the map of how many steps i did, now when i walk them streets again, i know exactly how many steps i have done. obsessed or what!. but i have to be obsessed while i'm trying to lose weight or i give up and cant be bothered. i have to have the job in hand at the forefront of my mind. 

SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- 
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 2 / LOST 4 
LAZYITIS. WON 17 / LOST 5 
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 2 / LOST 4 
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1 

happiness, walking boots tread thinner! (at least something's getting thinner!), giggles 
Jane.xxx.

CHOCCCCYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

CHOCCCCYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! 
that's all I wish to say on the subject! 


SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- 
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 2 
LAZYITIS. WON 14 / LOST 5 
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 1 / LOST 2 
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1 

choccy. choccy. choccy 
Jane.xxx.

lost the 2lbs i gained and lost another 2lb

bye bye 320's 23st's, hello 310's 22st's. whoop whoop. 

after my mistake with my scales hahahahaha, yesterday was a great food day, i was not hungry, i didn't crave anything, I ate reduced fat cheese and a massive bag of hand cooked crisps. Bliss!, half of the calories i had burned off going to buy them before i ate them, and i still remained in my daily calories allowance, which i have reduced to 1800 to 1900, this should enable me to lose 0.5lbs a week even if i sit on my arse doing nothing!, which of course i wont do. 

So, i have lost 4lbs this week, yay and its mostly down to you guys commenting on my blogs that have kept me going. thank you. 

i seem to be weighing in twice a week, on Wednesdays which is my normal weigh in day and on Sundays which is the BLC16 weigh in day. i cant get used to not weighing in on Wednesday, but i have to as its just mucking everything up. 

SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- starting again after my scales saga 
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 0 
LAZYITIS. WON 13 / LOST 4 
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 1 / LOST 0 
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1 

started weight loss on 30th Dec 2010 
29th dec 2011 325lbs 23 stone 2lbs 
week 1. 6th jan 2011 -5lbs = 320lb, 22st 11, 145lbs 10st 6lbs to go 
week 2 9th(midweek) -3lbs = 317lb, 22st 8, 142lbs 10st 3lb to go 
week 2 12th Jan +2lbs = 319, 22st 10 144 to go 
week 3 16th jan -4lbs = 315, 22st 6, 140lbs 10st 1lb to go 

today will be a good day, i hope 

Happy. tired, aching back. 
Jane.xxx. 


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How silly I am. hahahahaha! you have to read this:)

this morning i woke up in a great determined mood. push push push on everything today. i did 10 mins on the devil cross trainer and a good 35 mins fast housework. i weighed all my food as i always do. lunch time came, i thought i would do a veg casserole and then i could have it for my dinner and tea and then some for supper. I got my scales out weighed the carrots, swede, celery, a few little pototoes, 4 bigish onions and a eat smart pasta in sauce. herbs and seasoning. 
 
oooo dinner! (photo virgin, so i hope it comes out ok!) 

ok, so i entered them into my spark tracker. then all day i was sat wondering how the hell 4 onions could be 345 calories! and this veg stew came in at 1,400 calories!!! how the hell does veg come in at that!!!..... I have been hunrgyish all day but eating my dinner was not touching the sides. Anyway!...i really needed something that was going to fill me up and stop this awful pain and grumbling in my belly that was making me feel a bit sick, so i opted for 100g of porrage oats. now that will fill me up till the morning, out came my trusty scales and weighed 100g out. no no no is that all i thought! 
 
i can fit it in my hand!, i'm gonna be starving. at this stage i knew something was not quite right. i got out a tin of my sons spaggetti that said the weight was 250g, put it on the scales, 568g! or something like that...what!!!!! surly the tin dont weigh that much! I did the same with a packed of crumble mix that was 225g it came out at over 500g...... I took a closer look at my scales.......HAHAHAHAHAHA i had only been weighting my food in lbs and not grams! 
no wonder i was hunrgy and it explains the fish in breadcrumbs saga from the other day, i did not eat 1,500 calories worth of fish after all, (and incidentally, i do read everything that it says on the box, i always do) and it explains the 1.7g of brussel sprouts, i kept thinking that i didnt eat that many sprouts! it didnt look that many. hahahaah, i dont know how long i had been mis-weighing every thing but at least i know now, that i can eat less than i think i can!. i cant tell you how happy i am as today with my big push has been something that i couldnt live with, according to my scales and the spark tracker i have had 1,978 calsories today....but really i have had at a guess 1,200....oh i can have a butty now! hahahahahahahahahaahahhahahaah
. 
here is the difference and what 100g of oats SHOULD look like and what it was above at 0.100lbs 
 

silly me, hehehehehehe. 
but now what do i do, do i go and alter all my food weights on my tracker and thus reducing my calories each day thus giving me different results on my scores, or do i wipe the slate clean and start my scores again. hummmmmmmmmm. 
but why have i gained 2lbs this week....time of the month is coming! (sorry guys!)******blushing*****, that's the only thing i can think of, we will see next week if i have a good weight loss!. 
i feel a right banana!. but I'm looking forward to tomorrow when i can afford to have a little bit of comfort food....oh, mashed potatoes! Bliss!. 


SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- 
FOOD ADDICTION. DUNNO! 
LAZYITIS. WON 13 / LOST 4 
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, ERM DUNNO! 

Silliness, Happiness, Hungryness 
Jane.xxx 

Push, Push, Push

I'm going to push myself today in every way. 
go for the burn on calories, exercise and motivation. NO slacking. 

armed with a few quotes from my Vitrual Mind Trainer BOTZZZ 

"Extra weight will not fall off on its own, we have to make sacrifices in order to get into the shape that we want to, pain will be a part of the process, discomfort will be a part of the process and giving up all of that comfort food will also be a part of that process" 

"We all have choices to make on a daily, we can choose to float along with the flow and what happens happens or we can decide that we will control every turn that we make and force our way through the tougher situations and create our own destiny" 

"every journey starts with a single step but if that step is not taken the stationary is where you will stay. Taking control of our lives is the way we will take them back". 

Good luck to me and to you for the rest of the day. 

hopeful determined strong 
Jane.xxx. 

History Lesson

I think its about time that I told you a bit about me. I have been over weight since leaving school at 15. or rather I started putting the weight on when i left school, and its been a ever losing battle since. I left my home town when i was 21 years old to live on a narrowboat (see my website www,jambuttycrafts.com i remember then that i weighted 15 stone 1 lbs (211lbs) since then its just crept on. I have always eaten healthily, I never have nor will ever fry food in a frying pan with oil, nor do i own a deep fat fryer! YUK! the work of the devil them things are!, If I need to do eggs or something its ALWAYS dry fried maybe a squirt of 1cal fry light if I remember!. I dont do sweet stuff like cakes and rarely biscuits (but when i do do biscuits i eat the whole pack!) I dont do sweets, I do do pies choccy savory stuff. 
I have always battled with my weight but i have always been able to maintain while i have been trying to lose weight, i may lose a few stone but it always goes back on again BECAUSE.... I battle to lose weight for 11 months of ever year, I see hardly any results for my hard efforts, so i give up for about 3 to 4 weeks and say SOD IT! and eat what i want, this results in putting on 25 30lbs then i wake myself up and re-start my battle. the constant trying and getting hardly anywhere is very hard to take, but thats how its always been for me. I lost 28lbs 2 years ago but i had to walk for between 3 and 4 hours EVERY day! that's what it takes for me to lose weight as my addiction and craving for food is so bad. but i can no longer do that amount of walking as my son is out of his pram and cant walk that far and my knee is still playing me up after injuring it swimming!. 
I know what I have to do.....EAT LESS!. Simple...just eat less....sounds soooooo easy!...sometimes my food addiction, I even think that it maybe a physical thing and not just a mental thing. ..I really need to get a grip and write more of these blogs, its making me see ME. 
fat and greedy, has no control and even when i do try hard and battle to get control over my eating it makes me unhappy after a few weeks of trying. Its like WHY CANT I EAT WHAT I BLOOMING WELL LIKE!!!!!!! danger danger!. I know that i cant eat what i want if I'm to win my battle over food and flab. I had a very bad childhood, where as I am not a bad person who goes around committing crimes, then says oh! i did it cos i had a crap childhood!, no no no, I am a good person who is responsable for my actions and who knows right from wrong. its the emotional neglect that I had to suffer and that is still with me to this day. my mum became a alchololic after years of violence from my dad, she left him when i was 5, she met another violent man who near dam killed her, she had a brain hemorage after he hit her over the head when i was about 9, she came out of hospital and hit the drink, after that she didnt even clean the house let alone gave us (me and my brother he died aged 27 of drug overdose) any love or cuddles. and the feeling of loneliness is still very much with me. i have loads of friends and family but no one calls me or visits me, they are so sick of listening to me telling them, i started me diet again! or i lost 3lbs this week, on and on and on....every time i talk to anyone, like i think they would be interested to hear it again! they've listened to it for 20 odd years!... no wonder I'm alone. .. I hear low self esteem every where i go yet where is it? what is it? how can i get some? do I have some, do I not?. living in my body and my emotional shortcomings you would understand. Oh! how life messes with your head and makes you fat!. 
ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH. I told my blog way to much tonight thank you!. 

I want to be addicted to something else, i want to "cross addict" myself to exercise. i read it somewhere! beating one addiction only to become addicted to something else, usually they mean from drugs to drink, drink to fags, ooops! I mean cigarettes!***grinning***. i want to make my cross addiction from food to exercise. Hummmmmmm!!! 

so far today its been a good day, i still have about 500 cals to eat and i have done 53 mins of walking, not quite my 60 mins target but i have been busy working on the new sign for our new shop. so, 

SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- 
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 8 / LOST 8 
LAZYITIS. WON 12 / LOST 4 
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 10 / OVER 6. 

I will go now and read BOTZZZ's blog for my daily Virtual Mental Workout. He Da Man! 

Happy Happy Happy 
Jane.xxx. 

unexpected bad choices = 2lbs gain:(

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! 
cous cous today, 
fish in breadcrumbs yesterday 
bread baps the day before 
potatoes the day before that 
all quite healthy but full of calories that i found out afterwards when i entered them in my food tracker. these single items have taken me way over my daily allowance and i have put 2lbs back on. i so upset, i have been trying so hard, i know im slipping back into my old ways a little but come on! i ate 1.7kg of Brussels sprouts today! but the so called healthy cous cous was calorie laden. 
i have to beat this bloody addiction to comfort food. no bread, no spuds, no fish in breadcrumbs, no cous cous, no comfort food. i thought i was being quite healthy! huh!. 
I must (if i have time) check the calories BEFORE i eat them!. 
It was a big surprise to know that i ate 1,500 cals worth of fish! in breadcrumbs i know but it was only haddock! i could of got a fish and chips from the chippy for that many calories for **** sake!. gosh i am soooooo angry, wish i could swear but i dont know who will read this but i guess you all know what's coming out of my mouth!... when you look at 600g of made up cous cous, it don't look a lot when its in the dish, but its got a thousand calories in it!, just one tablespoonful is 100g 170cals! now i'm hungry and i have all ready done my calories in and then some. so i guess another mucked up day!. i not doing very well am i!. 

on the plus side i have eaten no death food for 4 days, its all been healthy or healthyish! or so i thought! 

must try harder, soooooooooooooooooo much ******* harder!. 

SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- 
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 7 / LOST 8 
LAZYITIS. WON 11 / LOST 4 
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 9 / OVER 6. 

Jane.xxx.