drum roll please.............
today i walked 10,000 step! whoo hooooo. way to go me!. yay!
I have many pedometers, indeed i have worn two at a time on a few occasions but they are never 100% spot on, the best i can get is 10% out and talking off 100 steps or adding 100 steps in each thousand is just not good enough for me. so i walked to school last week with poor 5 year old in hand, moaning all the way, well it was windy and up hill and -1, felt like -10!. after i dropped him off i began counting my steps home. cunning plan not to lose my count. count to a hundred and stick a finger out of my pocket, another hundred another finger out and so on. buy the time i got to my front door 2,400 steps i had walked! great. 4,800 steps done. i google mapped it and its 1.1 miles to school and its 57 mins or so round trip. nice!.
but a bit scary as the footpath is not very wide so yesterday i decided that we walk up the canal instead, home from home since i lived on my narrowboat for nearly 20 years. on the way back i counted the steps hoping not to see anyone i knew that would make me loose count, just under 2,500 steps. so today (knowing that i would at least maintain my weight without altering my diet at 10,000 steps a day) we set off for a walk to school in the morning and the evening Poor Son! i knew i could do it , it was just up to my knee, but it feels ok.
so nearly 4 hours of walking and 4.4 miles and 10,000 steps done burning off 768 cals. whooooooo hooooooooo.
when we open the new shop in a few weeks i will only be able to do this walk 2 days a week, but i have counted the steps in the shop and i can do 20 from front to back, walk that 5 times and i've done a hundred!. gotta keep walking and talking them little steps, they all help!
ate so many veggies for tea too then as a treat i had 3 mini ice creams and a mini choccy muffin, less than 500 cals for the lot.
have not done so well the last few days, my Sunday night off extended into Monday and Tuesday but i did walk and tried to watch what i ate too. oh please let me have a weight loss this week.
last week i printed off a map of my immediate area and went walking, counting the steps of each road from corner to corner, writing on the map of how many steps i did, now when i walk them streets again, i know exactly how many steps i have done. obsessed or what!. but i have to be obsessed while i'm trying to lose weight or i give up and cant be bothered. i have to have the job in hand at the forefront of my mind.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 2 / LOST 4
LAZYITIS. WON 17 / LOST 5
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 2 / LOST 4
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1
happiness, walking boots tread thinner! (at least something's getting thinner!), giggles
Jane.xxx.
Wednesday 19 January 2011
Monday 17 January 2011
CHOCCCCYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
CHOCCCCYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
that's all I wish to say on the subject!
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 2
LAZYITIS. WON 14 / LOST 5
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 1 / LOST 2
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1
choccy. choccy. choccy
Jane.xxx.
that's all I wish to say on the subject!
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 2
LAZYITIS. WON 14 / LOST 5
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 1 / LOST 2
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1
choccy. choccy. choccy
Jane.xxx.
Sunday 16 January 2011
lost the 2lbs i gained and lost another 2lb
bye bye 320's 23st's, hello 310's 22st's. whoop whoop.
after my mistake with my scales hahahahaha, yesterday was a great food day, i was not hungry, i didn't crave anything, I ate reduced fat cheese and a massive bag of hand cooked crisps. Bliss!, half of the calories i had burned off going to buy them before i ate them, and i still remained in my daily calories allowance, which i have reduced to 1800 to 1900, this should enable me to lose 0.5lbs a week even if i sit on my arse doing nothing!, which of course i wont do.
So, i have lost 4lbs this week, yay and its mostly down to you guys commenting on my blogs that have kept me going. thank you.
i seem to be weighing in twice a week, on Wednesdays which is my normal weigh in day and on Sundays which is the BLC16 weigh in day. i cant get used to not weighing in on Wednesday, but i have to as its just mucking everything up.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- starting again after my scales saga
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 0
LAZYITIS. WON 13 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 1 / LOST 0
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1
started weight loss on 30th Dec 2010
29th dec 2011 325lbs 23 stone 2lbs
week 1. 6th jan 2011 -5lbs = 320lb, 22st 11, 145lbs 10st 6lbs to go
week 2 9th(midweek) -3lbs = 317lb, 22st 8, 142lbs 10st 3lb to go
week 2 12th Jan +2lbs = 319, 22st 10 144 to go
week 3 16th jan -4lbs = 315, 22st 6, 140lbs 10st 1lb to go
today will be a good day, i hope
Happy. tired, aching back.
Jane.xxx.
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after my mistake with my scales hahahahaha, yesterday was a great food day, i was not hungry, i didn't crave anything, I ate reduced fat cheese and a massive bag of hand cooked crisps. Bliss!, half of the calories i had burned off going to buy them before i ate them, and i still remained in my daily calories allowance, which i have reduced to 1800 to 1900, this should enable me to lose 0.5lbs a week even if i sit on my arse doing nothing!, which of course i wont do.
So, i have lost 4lbs this week, yay and its mostly down to you guys commenting on my blogs that have kept me going. thank you.
i seem to be weighing in twice a week, on Wednesdays which is my normal weigh in day and on Sundays which is the BLC16 weigh in day. i cant get used to not weighing in on Wednesday, but i have to as its just mucking everything up.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:- starting again after my scales saga
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 0
LAZYITIS. WON 13 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, WON 1 / LOST 0
WEEKLY WEIGHT LOSS WON 2 / LOST 1
started weight loss on 30th Dec 2010
29th dec 2011 325lbs 23 stone 2lbs
week 1. 6th jan 2011 -5lbs = 320lb, 22st 11, 145lbs 10st 6lbs to go
week 2 9th(midweek) -3lbs = 317lb, 22st 8, 142lbs 10st 3lb to go
week 2 12th Jan +2lbs = 319, 22st 10 144 to go
week 3 16th jan -4lbs = 315, 22st 6, 140lbs 10st 1lb to go
today will be a good day, i hope
Happy. tired, aching back.
Jane.xxx.
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Saturday 15 January 2011
How silly I am. hahahahaha! you have to read this:)
this morning i woke up in a great determined mood. push push push on everything today. i did 10 mins on the devil cross trainer and a good 35 mins fast housework. i weighed all my food as i always do. lunch time came, i thought i would do a veg casserole and then i could have it for my dinner and tea and then some for supper. I got my scales out weighed the carrots, swede, celery, a few little pototoes, 4 bigish onions and a eat smart pasta in sauce. herbs and seasoning.
oooo dinner! (photo virgin, so i hope it comes out ok!)
ok, so i entered them into my spark tracker. then all day i was sat wondering how the hell 4 onions could be 345 calories! and this veg stew came in at 1,400 calories!!! how the hell does veg come in at that!!!..... I have been hunrgyish all day but eating my dinner was not touching the sides. Anyway!...i really needed something that was going to fill me up and stop this awful pain and grumbling in my belly that was making me feel a bit sick, so i opted for 100g of porrage oats. now that will fill me up till the morning, out came my trusty scales and weighed 100g out. no no no is that all i thought!
i can fit it in my hand!, i'm gonna be starving. at this stage i knew something was not quite right. i got out a tin of my sons spaggetti that said the weight was 250g, put it on the scales, 568g! or something like that...what!!!!! surly the tin dont weigh that much! I did the same with a packed of crumble mix that was 225g it came out at over 500g...... I took a closer look at my scales.......HAHAHAHAHAHA i had only been weighting my food in lbs and not grams!
no wonder i was hunrgy and it explains the fish in breadcrumbs saga from the other day, i did not eat 1,500 calories worth of fish after all, (and incidentally, i do read everything that it says on the box, i always do) and it explains the 1.7g of brussel sprouts, i kept thinking that i didnt eat that many sprouts! it didnt look that many. hahahaah, i dont know how long i had been mis-weighing every thing but at least i know now, that i can eat less than i think i can!. i cant tell you how happy i am as today with my big push has been something that i couldnt live with, according to my scales and the spark tracker i have had 1,978 calsories today....but really i have had at a guess 1,200....oh i can have a butty now! hahahahahahahahahaahahhahahaah
.
here is the difference and what 100g of oats SHOULD look like and what it was above at 0.100lbs
silly me, hehehehehehe.
but now what do i do, do i go and alter all my food weights on my tracker and thus reducing my calories each day thus giving me different results on my scores, or do i wipe the slate clean and start my scores again. hummmmmmmmmm.
but why have i gained 2lbs this week....time of the month is coming! (sorry guys!)******blushing*****, that's the only thing i can think of, we will see next week if i have a good weight loss!.
i feel a right banana!. but I'm looking forward to tomorrow when i can afford to have a little bit of comfort food....oh, mashed potatoes! Bliss!.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. DUNNO!
LAZYITIS. WON 13 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, ERM DUNNO!
Silliness, Happiness, Hungryness
Jane.xxx
oooo dinner! (photo virgin, so i hope it comes out ok!)
ok, so i entered them into my spark tracker. then all day i was sat wondering how the hell 4 onions could be 345 calories! and this veg stew came in at 1,400 calories!!! how the hell does veg come in at that!!!..... I have been hunrgyish all day but eating my dinner was not touching the sides. Anyway!...i really needed something that was going to fill me up and stop this awful pain and grumbling in my belly that was making me feel a bit sick, so i opted for 100g of porrage oats. now that will fill me up till the morning, out came my trusty scales and weighed 100g out. no no no is that all i thought!
i can fit it in my hand!, i'm gonna be starving. at this stage i knew something was not quite right. i got out a tin of my sons spaggetti that said the weight was 250g, put it on the scales, 568g! or something like that...what!!!!! surly the tin dont weigh that much! I did the same with a packed of crumble mix that was 225g it came out at over 500g...... I took a closer look at my scales.......HAHAHAHAHAHA i had only been weighting my food in lbs and not grams!
no wonder i was hunrgy and it explains the fish in breadcrumbs saga from the other day, i did not eat 1,500 calories worth of fish after all, (and incidentally, i do read everything that it says on the box, i always do) and it explains the 1.7g of brussel sprouts, i kept thinking that i didnt eat that many sprouts! it didnt look that many. hahahaah, i dont know how long i had been mis-weighing every thing but at least i know now, that i can eat less than i think i can!. i cant tell you how happy i am as today with my big push has been something that i couldnt live with, according to my scales and the spark tracker i have had 1,978 calsories today....but really i have had at a guess 1,200....oh i can have a butty now! hahahahahahahahahaahahhahahaah
.
here is the difference and what 100g of oats SHOULD look like and what it was above at 0.100lbs
silly me, hehehehehehe.
but now what do i do, do i go and alter all my food weights on my tracker and thus reducing my calories each day thus giving me different results on my scores, or do i wipe the slate clean and start my scores again. hummmmmmmmmm.
but why have i gained 2lbs this week....time of the month is coming! (sorry guys!)******blushing*****, that's the only thing i can think of, we will see next week if i have a good weight loss!.
i feel a right banana!. but I'm looking forward to tomorrow when i can afford to have a little bit of comfort food....oh, mashed potatoes! Bliss!.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. DUNNO!
LAZYITIS. WON 13 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, ERM DUNNO!
Silliness, Happiness, Hungryness
Jane.xxx
Push, Push, Push
I'm going to push myself today in every way.
go for the burn on calories, exercise and motivation. NO slacking.
armed with a few quotes from my Vitrual Mind Trainer BOTZZZ
"Extra weight will not fall off on its own, we have to make sacrifices in order to get into the shape that we want to, pain will be a part of the process, discomfort will be a part of the process and giving up all of that comfort food will also be a part of that process"
"We all have choices to make on a daily, we can choose to float along with the flow and what happens happens or we can decide that we will control every turn that we make and force our way through the tougher situations and create our own destiny"
"every journey starts with a single step but if that step is not taken the stationary is where you will stay. Taking control of our lives is the way we will take them back".
Good luck to me and to you for the rest of the day.
hopeful determined strong
Jane.xxx.
go for the burn on calories, exercise and motivation. NO slacking.
armed with a few quotes from my Vitrual Mind Trainer BOTZZZ
"Extra weight will not fall off on its own, we have to make sacrifices in order to get into the shape that we want to, pain will be a part of the process, discomfort will be a part of the process and giving up all of that comfort food will also be a part of that process"
"We all have choices to make on a daily, we can choose to float along with the flow and what happens happens or we can decide that we will control every turn that we make and force our way through the tougher situations and create our own destiny"
"every journey starts with a single step but if that step is not taken the stationary is where you will stay. Taking control of our lives is the way we will take them back".
Good luck to me and to you for the rest of the day.
hopeful determined strong
Jane.xxx.
History Lesson
I think its about time that I told you a bit about me. I have been over weight since leaving school at 15. or rather I started putting the weight on when i left school, and its been a ever losing battle since. I left my home town when i was 21 years old to live on a narrowboat (see my website www,jambuttycrafts.com i remember then that i weighted 15 stone 1 lbs (211lbs) since then its just crept on. I have always eaten healthily, I never have nor will ever fry food in a frying pan with oil, nor do i own a deep fat fryer! YUK! the work of the devil them things are!, If I need to do eggs or something its ALWAYS dry fried maybe a squirt of 1cal fry light if I remember!. I dont do sweet stuff like cakes and rarely biscuits (but when i do do biscuits i eat the whole pack!) I dont do sweets, I do do pies choccy savory stuff.
I have always battled with my weight but i have always been able to maintain while i have been trying to lose weight, i may lose a few stone but it always goes back on again BECAUSE.... I battle to lose weight for 11 months of ever year, I see hardly any results for my hard efforts, so i give up for about 3 to 4 weeks and say SOD IT! and eat what i want, this results in putting on 25 30lbs then i wake myself up and re-start my battle. the constant trying and getting hardly anywhere is very hard to take, but thats how its always been for me. I lost 28lbs 2 years ago but i had to walk for between 3 and 4 hours EVERY day! that's what it takes for me to lose weight as my addiction and craving for food is so bad. but i can no longer do that amount of walking as my son is out of his pram and cant walk that far and my knee is still playing me up after injuring it swimming!.
I know what I have to do.....EAT LESS!. Simple...just eat less....sounds soooooo easy!...sometimes my food addiction, I even think that it maybe a physical thing and not just a mental thing. ..I really need to get a grip and write more of these blogs, its making me see ME.
fat and greedy, has no control and even when i do try hard and battle to get control over my eating it makes me unhappy after a few weeks of trying. Its like WHY CANT I EAT WHAT I BLOOMING WELL LIKE!!!!!!! danger danger!. I know that i cant eat what i want if I'm to win my battle over food and flab. I had a very bad childhood, where as I am not a bad person who goes around committing crimes, then says oh! i did it cos i had a crap childhood!, no no no, I am a good person who is responsable for my actions and who knows right from wrong. its the emotional neglect that I had to suffer and that is still with me to this day. my mum became a alchololic after years of violence from my dad, she left him when i was 5, she met another violent man who near dam killed her, she had a brain hemorage after he hit her over the head when i was about 9, she came out of hospital and hit the drink, after that she didnt even clean the house let alone gave us (me and my brother he died aged 27 of drug overdose) any love or cuddles. and the feeling of loneliness is still very much with me. i have loads of friends and family but no one calls me or visits me, they are so sick of listening to me telling them, i started me diet again! or i lost 3lbs this week, on and on and on....every time i talk to anyone, like i think they would be interested to hear it again! they've listened to it for 20 odd years!... no wonder I'm alone. .. I hear low self esteem every where i go yet where is it? what is it? how can i get some? do I have some, do I not?. living in my body and my emotional shortcomings you would understand. Oh! how life messes with your head and makes you fat!.
ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH. I told my blog way to much tonight thank you!.
I want to be addicted to something else, i want to "cross addict" myself to exercise. i read it somewhere! beating one addiction only to become addicted to something else, usually they mean from drugs to drink, drink to fags, ooops! I mean cigarettes!***grinning***. i want to make my cross addiction from food to exercise. Hummmmmmm!!!
so far today its been a good day, i still have about 500 cals to eat and i have done 53 mins of walking, not quite my 60 mins target but i have been busy working on the new sign for our new shop. so,
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 8 / LOST 8
LAZYITIS. WON 12 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 10 / OVER 6.
I will go now and read BOTZZZ's blog for my daily Virtual Mental Workout. He Da Man!
Happy Happy Happy
Jane.xxx.
I have always battled with my weight but i have always been able to maintain while i have been trying to lose weight, i may lose a few stone but it always goes back on again BECAUSE.... I battle to lose weight for 11 months of ever year, I see hardly any results for my hard efforts, so i give up for about 3 to 4 weeks and say SOD IT! and eat what i want, this results in putting on 25 30lbs then i wake myself up and re-start my battle. the constant trying and getting hardly anywhere is very hard to take, but thats how its always been for me. I lost 28lbs 2 years ago but i had to walk for between 3 and 4 hours EVERY day! that's what it takes for me to lose weight as my addiction and craving for food is so bad. but i can no longer do that amount of walking as my son is out of his pram and cant walk that far and my knee is still playing me up after injuring it swimming!.
I know what I have to do.....EAT LESS!. Simple...just eat less....sounds soooooo easy!...sometimes my food addiction, I even think that it maybe a physical thing and not just a mental thing. ..I really need to get a grip and write more of these blogs, its making me see ME.
fat and greedy, has no control and even when i do try hard and battle to get control over my eating it makes me unhappy after a few weeks of trying. Its like WHY CANT I EAT WHAT I BLOOMING WELL LIKE!!!!!!! danger danger!. I know that i cant eat what i want if I'm to win my battle over food and flab. I had a very bad childhood, where as I am not a bad person who goes around committing crimes, then says oh! i did it cos i had a crap childhood!, no no no, I am a good person who is responsable for my actions and who knows right from wrong. its the emotional neglect that I had to suffer and that is still with me to this day. my mum became a alchololic after years of violence from my dad, she left him when i was 5, she met another violent man who near dam killed her, she had a brain hemorage after he hit her over the head when i was about 9, she came out of hospital and hit the drink, after that she didnt even clean the house let alone gave us (me and my brother he died aged 27 of drug overdose) any love or cuddles. and the feeling of loneliness is still very much with me. i have loads of friends and family but no one calls me or visits me, they are so sick of listening to me telling them, i started me diet again! or i lost 3lbs this week, on and on and on....every time i talk to anyone, like i think they would be interested to hear it again! they've listened to it for 20 odd years!... no wonder I'm alone. .. I hear low self esteem every where i go yet where is it? what is it? how can i get some? do I have some, do I not?. living in my body and my emotional shortcomings you would understand. Oh! how life messes with your head and makes you fat!.
ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH. I told my blog way to much tonight thank you!.
I want to be addicted to something else, i want to "cross addict" myself to exercise. i read it somewhere! beating one addiction only to become addicted to something else, usually they mean from drugs to drink, drink to fags, ooops! I mean cigarettes!***grinning***. i want to make my cross addiction from food to exercise. Hummmmmmm!!!
so far today its been a good day, i still have about 500 cals to eat and i have done 53 mins of walking, not quite my 60 mins target but i have been busy working on the new sign for our new shop. so,
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 8 / LOST 8
LAZYITIS. WON 12 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 10 / OVER 6.
I will go now and read BOTZZZ's blog for my daily Virtual Mental Workout. He Da Man!
Happy Happy Happy
Jane.xxx.
unexpected bad choices = 2lbs gain:(
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
cous cous today,
fish in breadcrumbs yesterday
bread baps the day before
potatoes the day before that
all quite healthy but full of calories that i found out afterwards when i entered them in my food tracker. these single items have taken me way over my daily allowance and i have put 2lbs back on. i so upset, i have been trying so hard, i know im slipping back into my old ways a little but come on! i ate 1.7kg of Brussels sprouts today! but the so called healthy cous cous was calorie laden.
i have to beat this bloody addiction to comfort food. no bread, no spuds, no fish in breadcrumbs, no cous cous, no comfort food. i thought i was being quite healthy! huh!.
I must (if i have time) check the calories BEFORE i eat them!.
It was a big surprise to know that i ate 1,500 cals worth of fish! in breadcrumbs i know but it was only haddock! i could of got a fish and chips from the chippy for that many calories for **** sake!. gosh i am soooooo angry, wish i could swear but i dont know who will read this but i guess you all know what's coming out of my mouth!... when you look at 600g of made up cous cous, it don't look a lot when its in the dish, but its got a thousand calories in it!, just one tablespoonful is 100g 170cals! now i'm hungry and i have all ready done my calories in and then some. so i guess another mucked up day!. i not doing very well am i!.
on the plus side i have eaten no death food for 4 days, its all been healthy or healthyish! or so i thought!
must try harder, soooooooooooooooooo much ******* harder!.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 7 / LOST 8
LAZYITIS. WON 11 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 9 / OVER 6.
Jane.xxx.
cous cous today,
fish in breadcrumbs yesterday
bread baps the day before
potatoes the day before that
all quite healthy but full of calories that i found out afterwards when i entered them in my food tracker. these single items have taken me way over my daily allowance and i have put 2lbs back on. i so upset, i have been trying so hard, i know im slipping back into my old ways a little but come on! i ate 1.7kg of Brussels sprouts today! but the so called healthy cous cous was calorie laden.
i have to beat this bloody addiction to comfort food. no bread, no spuds, no fish in breadcrumbs, no cous cous, no comfort food. i thought i was being quite healthy! huh!.
I must (if i have time) check the calories BEFORE i eat them!.
It was a big surprise to know that i ate 1,500 cals worth of fish! in breadcrumbs i know but it was only haddock! i could of got a fish and chips from the chippy for that many calories for **** sake!. gosh i am soooooo angry, wish i could swear but i dont know who will read this but i guess you all know what's coming out of my mouth!... when you look at 600g of made up cous cous, it don't look a lot when its in the dish, but its got a thousand calories in it!, just one tablespoonful is 100g 170cals! now i'm hungry and i have all ready done my calories in and then some. so i guess another mucked up day!. i not doing very well am i!.
on the plus side i have eaten no death food for 4 days, its all been healthy or healthyish! or so i thought!
must try harder, soooooooooooooooooo much ******* harder!.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 7 / LOST 8
LAZYITIS. WON 11 / LOST 4
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 9 / OVER 6.
Jane.xxx.
Thank you
Thank you for all your fabulous comments and help and wise words and motivation that you all have left me on my blogs. i cant tell you how much its helped me. i love you aoll for making the effort to write and there is only one answer i can give you all, and thats, that i will pull myself back on track tomorrow and try my hardest.
i picked up my little car today, ah bless!. i hated it at first but actually its quite good and fun and scary to drive!.
gone over my cals by 500 odd today but its ok as i am ready for having a good day tomorrow and burning it all off. im doing nothing tomorrow apart from housework, so i will get out my heart rate monitor and see how much of my total overeat of 1500 cals i can burn off.
i don't want to let me or you down.
going to have a little play in the games room to aim for my 100 posts.
night night.
Jane.xxx.
i picked up my little car today, ah bless!. i hated it at first but actually its quite good and fun and scary to drive!.
gone over my cals by 500 odd today but its ok as i am ready for having a good day tomorrow and burning it all off. im doing nothing tomorrow apart from housework, so i will get out my heart rate monitor and see how much of my total overeat of 1500 cals i can burn off.
i don't want to let me or you down.
going to have a little play in the games room to aim for my 100 posts.
night night.
Jane.xxx.
for one night only
for the first time in 10 days i just wanted to stuff my face. tut tut. i gone 1,000 cals over my daily allowance. i did no exercise either, mind you i have been busy all day being stressed trying to buy car insurance for the new old banger. i hate the tiny car but i have no choice. i wish i could afford to keep my beloved big car but i cant.
went to maccy D's again, we never go more than once or twice a month so twice in one week is pushing it.
i hope my binge is for one night only. i have only been trying to lose weight this time for 10 days, surly to god i can last longer!
slap myself in the face, pick myself up and start again in the morning. i will not be beaten this time. i feel my willpower slipping, oh please dont let me give up and put the 5lbs back on. noooooooooooooooo!.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 7 / LOST 3 (yesterdays choccy and todays macdonalds & evening binge).
LAZYITIS. WON 9 / LOST 1 (todays lack of any exercise)
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 9 / OVER 1. (todays binge)
oh please put some comments on here. its the first thing i look at when i open my eyes in the morning, my computer is right next to my bed, so i'm all snug and warm. but your comments give me the kick up the bum that i need in the morning. any comments will do, i love them. thank you in advance, i will send you a little goody!
night night. jane.xxx.
went to maccy D's again, we never go more than once or twice a month so twice in one week is pushing it.
i hope my binge is for one night only. i have only been trying to lose weight this time for 10 days, surly to god i can last longer!
slap myself in the face, pick myself up and start again in the morning. i will not be beaten this time. i feel my willpower slipping, oh please dont let me give up and put the 5lbs back on. noooooooooooooooo!.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 7 / LOST 3 (yesterdays choccy and todays macdonalds & evening binge).
LAZYITIS. WON 9 / LOST 1 (todays lack of any exercise)
CALORIE ALLOWANCE, UNDER 9 / OVER 1. (todays binge)
oh please put some comments on here. its the first thing i look at when i open my eyes in the morning, my computer is right next to my bed, so i'm all snug and warm. but your comments give me the kick up the bum that i need in the morning. any comments will do, i love them. thank you in advance, i will send you a little goody!
night night. jane.xxx.
cravings today!
had a good day yesterday. was busy at the new and old shops. but we had death food MacDonalds on the drive home. i had two double cheesebugers. i thought that they were 300 cals each. i got back home and they are 440 each. i think that american burgers are bigger than UK ones..despite this i didnt go over my cals for the day so that was good.
today was back on track,. walked to the shops and got myself loads of salad stuff. came home ate the said salad stuff with some ham, potatoes and carrots, all very very nice, but eating salad always leaves me craving something sweet...so i spent the rest of my day battling the cravings for choccy. i did have some, 3 little choccy bears, 55 cals for 3! but i had them 3 times and then started on my sons choccy santas that he dont like. but its all good as i only nibbled at it and its sat looking at me, smiling, in front of the pc monitor. i have not gone over my calories today, yes i'm at the top end and i only have 4 cals left before i go over but i did burn off 499 while out walking so overall i'm pleased. i lowered my cals to 1900 to 2100 instead of 2200
oh! i forgot to say.. I lost 5lbs this week! whhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooohooooooooo
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! yyyeeehhhaaaaa! i'm so happy. actually i have lost more. the night before i started back on here i weight 328, but that was at night. on the morning that i started i weighed 325, my weigh in days are Wednesday and after sleeping for a few hours my little one woke me up at 1.30am so i weighed in then at 320. so i entered my weight on here, went back to sleep, woke up weighed myself again 318lbs but i am going to carry that over to next week, don't know why!
so, salad = cravings! don't know why as i was stuffed!.
I've got jelly belly!. its great that i have it as it shows that i have lost weight. a hard belly is putting weight on, and wobbly jelly belly is losing weight. i must remember to do my measurements tomorrow.
want a giggle?. this is a true story. about 2 years ago i wondered how people on the TV like the biggest loser got life size cut outs of them selves before they lost weight. I wanted one. i still had the cardboard box from which my cross trainer came in. so i got it out and laid it on the floor and sat looking at it for a while. got out my pen and began drawing round my legs, that didnt work as the pen was not at the correct angle most of the time and for most of the time i couldnt even see the pen!. next plan of action was insane but it worked. it involved a sieve and flour!. hehehehe. i got all naked and laid down on the cardboard, poured some flour into the sieve and floured myself around the edges of my rather large body!. this, i hoped would give me a true width of my body as the flour would fall off me and just head south till it reach the cardboard. i slowly got up and woohoo there i was, on the cardboard. i got my pen and marked out the edges. so there you go, i now have a life size cut out of me!. a few inches taller than me because when i sat up i sort of slide down a bit. i told a few of my mates, oh did we laugh!. i will have to do it again as im bigger now than i was then.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 2 (yesterdays MacDonalds and todays choccy).
LAZYITIS. WON 3 / LOST 0
well i think that's enough for tonight.
night night folks. have a great day as i know for most of you its still early evening. its 1.02am for me.
Jane.xxx.
today was back on track,. walked to the shops and got myself loads of salad stuff. came home ate the said salad stuff with some ham, potatoes and carrots, all very very nice, but eating salad always leaves me craving something sweet...so i spent the rest of my day battling the cravings for choccy. i did have some, 3 little choccy bears, 55 cals for 3! but i had them 3 times and then started on my sons choccy santas that he dont like. but its all good as i only nibbled at it and its sat looking at me, smiling, in front of the pc monitor. i have not gone over my calories today, yes i'm at the top end and i only have 4 cals left before i go over but i did burn off 499 while out walking so overall i'm pleased. i lowered my cals to 1900 to 2100 instead of 2200
oh! i forgot to say.. I lost 5lbs this week! whhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooohooooooooo
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! yyyeeehhhaaaaa! i'm so happy. actually i have lost more. the night before i started back on here i weight 328, but that was at night. on the morning that i started i weighed 325, my weigh in days are Wednesday and after sleeping for a few hours my little one woke me up at 1.30am so i weighed in then at 320. so i entered my weight on here, went back to sleep, woke up weighed myself again 318lbs but i am going to carry that over to next week, don't know why!
so, salad = cravings! don't know why as i was stuffed!.
I've got jelly belly!. its great that i have it as it shows that i have lost weight. a hard belly is putting weight on, and wobbly jelly belly is losing weight. i must remember to do my measurements tomorrow.
want a giggle?. this is a true story. about 2 years ago i wondered how people on the TV like the biggest loser got life size cut outs of them selves before they lost weight. I wanted one. i still had the cardboard box from which my cross trainer came in. so i got it out and laid it on the floor and sat looking at it for a while. got out my pen and began drawing round my legs, that didnt work as the pen was not at the correct angle most of the time and for most of the time i couldnt even see the pen!. next plan of action was insane but it worked. it involved a sieve and flour!. hehehehe. i got all naked and laid down on the cardboard, poured some flour into the sieve and floured myself around the edges of my rather large body!. this, i hoped would give me a true width of my body as the flour would fall off me and just head south till it reach the cardboard. i slowly got up and woohoo there i was, on the cardboard. i got my pen and marked out the edges. so there you go, i now have a life size cut out of me!. a few inches taller than me because when i sat up i sort of slide down a bit. i told a few of my mates, oh did we laugh!. i will have to do it again as im bigger now than i was then.
SCORES ARE AS FOLLOWS:-
FOOD ADDICTION. WON 1 / LOST 2 (yesterdays MacDonalds and todays choccy).
LAZYITIS. WON 3 / LOST 0
well i think that's enough for tonight.
night night folks. have a great day as i know for most of you its still early evening. its 1.02am for me.
Jane.xxx.
early night for me
drum roll please......... i did NOT eat the rice pudding! whoooooooo hooooooooo WIN 1 / LOSE 0
I threw it out in the bin this morning. i have been busy today and cleaned my car out, took me ages but i forgot to put my heart rate monitor on, so i guessed i burnt off 200 calories but i bet it was much more, i was at it for over two hours!.
bad bad girl i was for my tea!. i had all the dreaded death food, beige crap. oven chips a sausage, fish fingers, chicken breast things....oh so nice yet oh so nasty. i dont want to eat death food like that any more, maybe once or twice a week just to get it out of my freezer, i'm not made of money!....the results of my death food tea is sluggishness and tiredness. its ok as i know i will be ok tomorrow, back eating healthily. i do not want to be back where i was 6 nights ago, desparate to stop eating, looking at a big plate of death food that i was going to eat, two big cornish pasties and enough oven chips to feed the whole house!, i sat there willing myself not to throw it up the wall. oh i was so so close to lifting up that plate and throwing it, if i had of done i would have ended up on the floor in a total mess crying my eyes out. i have been there many many times, broke so many plates! as my addiction to death food totally overwhelms me but i dont want to eat it but i cant stop. the inner turmoil was incredible. i hope i have left that feeling behind me, i hope it never returns again...and they say drugs is bad!!!!!.
ooooo look a little choccy bear!. nom nom nom. very nice. 55 cals for 3! gotta have a little treat now and then. despite my death food tea i still remain under my cals for the day, well i'm in-between 1900 and 2200, so i'm quite happy as i burned off about 250+.
exciting tomorrow as we get the keys to our new shop. cant wait.
my knee is throbbing. i pushed it on the cross trainer. i did 10 mins. im used to doing 20 but since i damaged my knee swimming of all things i have to watch what im doing.
anyway i'm gong to bed. no rice pud out to get me tonight thank god!.
scores are as follows :- food addiction win 1/ lose 0. lazyitis win 1/ lose 0.
night night. jane.xxx.
I threw it out in the bin this morning. i have been busy today and cleaned my car out, took me ages but i forgot to put my heart rate monitor on, so i guessed i burnt off 200 calories but i bet it was much more, i was at it for over two hours!.
bad bad girl i was for my tea!. i had all the dreaded death food, beige crap. oven chips a sausage, fish fingers, chicken breast things....oh so nice yet oh so nasty. i dont want to eat death food like that any more, maybe once or twice a week just to get it out of my freezer, i'm not made of money!....the results of my death food tea is sluggishness and tiredness. its ok as i know i will be ok tomorrow, back eating healthily. i do not want to be back where i was 6 nights ago, desparate to stop eating, looking at a big plate of death food that i was going to eat, two big cornish pasties and enough oven chips to feed the whole house!, i sat there willing myself not to throw it up the wall. oh i was so so close to lifting up that plate and throwing it, if i had of done i would have ended up on the floor in a total mess crying my eyes out. i have been there many many times, broke so many plates! as my addiction to death food totally overwhelms me but i dont want to eat it but i cant stop. the inner turmoil was incredible. i hope i have left that feeling behind me, i hope it never returns again...and they say drugs is bad!!!!!.
ooooo look a little choccy bear!. nom nom nom. very nice. 55 cals for 3! gotta have a little treat now and then. despite my death food tea i still remain under my cals for the day, well i'm in-between 1900 and 2200, so i'm quite happy as i burned off about 250+.
exciting tomorrow as we get the keys to our new shop. cant wait.
my knee is throbbing. i pushed it on the cross trainer. i did 10 mins. im used to doing 20 but since i damaged my knee swimming of all things i have to watch what im doing.
anyway i'm gong to bed. no rice pud out to get me tonight thank god!.
scores are as follows :- food addiction win 1/ lose 0. lazyitis win 1/ lose 0.
night night. jane.xxx.
cant sleep. rice pudding is out to get me!
its 2.39am and i cant sleep. i am being tortured by a bowl of rice pudding sat looking at me, tormenting me. my son left it. i have 100 calories left but im not hungry, yet i soooooo want to eat it. no good removing it and putting it in the fridge, cos i know its there! urging me to eat it!. i must be stronger, i only been at my weight loss effort for 5 days. i cant give in yet. i got two years before i reach my goal weight and thats if i lose 1.5lbs every week! maybe if i just sniff it the craving will go away. NO! i wont do it. i got on my scales this morn, i know i shouldnt till wednesday but i couldnt resist, it says i lost about 5lbs, but i know weight goes up and down so i not expecting that much in the first week. i'm trying to talk/write my way out of the rice pudding getting me, i think its working. i'm going to try and get some sleep and i will let you know if i won the battle with the rice pud tommorrow.
jane.xxx
jane.xxx
embarrassed or what!
I wrote my first ever blog last year! and this is my second!. I posted my first ever blog to my facebook page not realising that it posted the link to the actual blog, well all my friends read it! ***blushing***...hahaha, well it was good actually as i have loads of virtual friends who are supporting me because of it. and i didnt know that sparkers would be reading it and commenting too!. its great!. i will have to watch what i say as my first ever blog (as it was titled) was really only me thinking out loud. mine you its the way i type so i probably wont change anything anyway.
i have had another good day, feeling strong and motivated, a little more motivate becasue of all your great comments. i have done my 60 minutes exercise, well almost 59! and that is thanks to Eryl! i told her i would match what she does, she did a hour!.. thank you!.. but i did it too. feel great, me and my 5 year old when out for a walk for 48 mins in the rain but it was so refreshing and i followed him for a change so it was great for him to be leader. food wise i am currently under 2,200 cals which for me is, like, WOW! i set my daily calories at 1900 to 2200 fitness mins at 60 per day and milage 2.5 miles a day. i know i can walk this far very easily as im used to walking up 4 hours a day, which was what i was doing 18 months ago before i damaged my knee swimming!. currently i'm to fat to walk all that far so i have to limit it to 60 mins a day. i will put this up higher when im back to fullish fitness.
by the way my spelling can be quite bad because i type as fast as my brain thinks so i miss out lots of letters and spell them wrong, my fingers cant type quick enough!.
anyway so's not to boar you i will go now and do a bit of farmville!!! lol.
hope you all have a great new years eve/day. jane.xxx
i have had another good day, feeling strong and motivated, a little more motivate becasue of all your great comments. i have done my 60 minutes exercise, well almost 59! and that is thanks to Eryl! i told her i would match what she does, she did a hour!.. thank you!.. but i did it too. feel great, me and my 5 year old when out for a walk for 48 mins in the rain but it was so refreshing and i followed him for a change so it was great for him to be leader. food wise i am currently under 2,200 cals which for me is, like, WOW! i set my daily calories at 1900 to 2200 fitness mins at 60 per day and milage 2.5 miles a day. i know i can walk this far very easily as im used to walking up 4 hours a day, which was what i was doing 18 months ago before i damaged my knee swimming!. currently i'm to fat to walk all that far so i have to limit it to 60 mins a day. i will put this up higher when im back to fullish fitness.
by the way my spelling can be quite bad because i type as fast as my brain thinks so i miss out lots of letters and spell them wrong, my fingers cant type quick enough!.
anyway so's not to boar you i will go now and do a bit of farmville!!! lol.
hope you all have a great new years eve/day. jane.xxx
first blog ever and last blog in 2010
well its 11.52 pm on new years eve 2010 and this is my first ever blog. i started on here again two days ago, why wait for new year!, i had to start my diet and excersice when i needed to not when special dates say i have two, at least i had 2 days more on my friends! hahaha, my hopes for this year failed but next year in 6 mins my hopes are to be able to beat my addiction to food, i am currently 325lbs when i only suposed to be around 175. i am in constant pain with feet legs back ankles and neck!, i have to do somthing about it, i get so depressed about it. i hope that i am going to be strong this year and do what i set out to do, i have been trying to lose weight for over 20 years! i do not know what will make me change and win the battle this time but some thing some where has to make me do it, maybe writing about it will help me stay motivated to fight for my life......ooooo 3 mins to go till 2011.....being 13 stone or so over weight has taken 13 years off my life, a stone (14lbs) is 1 year as they say and its time to claim all them lost years back, i need to do it for my 5 year old son, he needs his mummy even when he is a teenager, i want to see him married, i want grandkids ect. i pray that i can do it this time.
00.00 du du duuuuuuu its midnight!.....happy new year every body...i wish you all you wish yourself. keep up your battles and dont give up. all the best for 2011. jane.xxx.
00.00 du du duuuuuuu its midnight!.....happy new year every body...i wish you all you wish yourself. keep up your battles and dont give up. all the best for 2011. jane.xxx.
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